finally ready

I''m finally ready after a 2month break to get a new foster. i called the worker and said that i only want to do foster i don't wish to adopt. she tried to talk to me about it but in the end its my choice. i just cant go through that pain again.i love doing foster and cant wait until i get another one. dont get me wrong i miss my little man. but i can know put clothes and toys away with out breaking down. i had to give the toy box away it was just too much i could see him playing with it and sitting on top of it. and i just could not keep it.know its just a hurry and wait for a call. i never noticed just how quiet the phone is when you are waiting on a call.