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This message is for my B-Daughter Chelsea (b-name Amber), who was born in 1984 in Phoenix, Az. Just incase you should ever search this site looking for a sign that I am thinking of you. Your 18th birthday was 12-8-2002. I have thought of you and your family ever day for the past 18 years. Praying that all has gone well for you. God has blessed me with the privilege of being able to watch you grow thru pictures and letters from your mother and father, Kathy and Rudy. You have been thought of, you have been prayed for, you have been my first love and I hope one day you will look for me and my family. Your pictures have scattered our refrigerator over the years along with the rest of the family photos and class art. Your parents letters and photos kept safe in my grandmothers old oak chest at the end of my bed, along with all the other things held dear too my heart. I still live in Arizona. I am married and have three childern. We all long to see you one day or at least a chance to tell you just how much you have been loved and longed for for. Always in my thoughts, Mollie

My daughter was born 12/18/84. Did you have a hard time with the 18th birthday? I sure did. I made some calls and found out a few things about her. The contacts I made were close enough so that I know she will find out I'm asking for her. Just waiting (not so) patiently for her to reach out.

Oh my. It almost seems harder for me with her 18th b-day coming and going than placing her 18 years ago. I have cried for weeks. The only way I can discribe the feeling is, it's like she has been reborn. Only this time I'm waiting to see a grown young lady, who has always been a new born baby in my eyes. I called the agency to let them know, if she ever looks for me, she is welcome to any info on me and my family. I too am just waiting. Wishing she would search today, but knowing I may have to wait another season to see her. I don't know why, but I always hoped she would call or something around her birthday. That maybe she longed to talk with me me as much I have longed to talk with her.

For some reason I just figured 18 was the magic number, she would become curious and find me on her b'day....silly, but we can only hope. I do some work for an adoption agency and while talking with a birthmother, she told me her son found her when he was in his 30's. They have a very good relationship. He said if he had found her at 18, she would have met a very angry, bitter young man. It was best he waited for both their sakes. That drove a knife into my heart, I've waited so long for that 18th b'day. But I guess it's best to wait if it means a more positive experience. :( I've visualized this tiny baby and toddler for all these years and then the 18th b'day comes and I suddenly realize I have a young adult with whom I could have adult conversations!! WOW! Is it hard for your children to see you mourn their sister? I catch myself hiding my feelings and my time on this sight for fear they will feel they aren't enough for me. How do you explain to 11 and 13 yr. olds that a mom can never sever ties to a child, no matter how many others she has? My husband has been wonderful. He puts up with a lot of ups and even more downs lately. Thank you for sharing the 18th woes. I thought I was being weird or something, making one birthday different than any of the others. I guess it's just that big step from childhood into adulthood and all I've missed along the way that blows me away. :( :( :( :( :(

My name is Jessica and I am looking for my birth parents. I was born July 19, 1984. I weighed 7lbs 11 ounces and I was 21 inches long. I was adopted at three months old. If anyone has any information I would appritiate it. Jessica