Dear Mom

Dear Mom, I have been searching for you for almost 30 years. My reasons have changed over the years, but I have always wanted to know who you are and what you are like. I am writing this letter to you in hopes that perhaps you may at least see this and know something of me. I have always known I was adopted. My adopted parents were wonderful and although my A-father died when I was 12, I have had a great, loving home. I hope that this may have been one reason you had to let me go and this will ease your mind some. I have had all the regular rough spots in life through the teen years to now, but nothing that any other child would not normally go through growing up. I had 2 little sisters, the middle child also adopted and then 7 year later they were blessed with their own - something they did not believe was possible. We grew up as a great family and remain close still. I had a huge family with many Aunts and Uncles, tons of cousins and such and always big gatherings at holidays. I was married at 28 to a wonderful man and now have 2 wonderful boys - 15 and 16 years old. They are the pride and joy of my life. I will tell you that when I first became pregnant, I searched very hard for you because I wanted medical information if nothing else. I received non-identifing info. that did nothing really, but as both are very healthy young men now, I am greatful that this was never a problem. As I get older I have realised that perhaps you may not want to be found, for your own reasons. I understand this better - but still would love to know many things. Those mostly are - who do I look like, do my boys take after your side of the family, do I have any brothers or sisters? There are of course more questions, but if I never find you rest assured that I am fine. With all the technology through the internet - if you should read this because you wanted to know I am O.K. - I am, and if you can't ever meet me for your own reasons - that too is o.k. Just know I am happy and am living a good life. I will continue to search for you, it is just something I have to do for me. I hope to find you one day, also happy and healthy, and fill this one void in my life. Your Daughter born 2/4/1957 in Washington D.C. Joan