Madeline Dawn's Adoption Story

September 30, 2020
Amanda Love

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THIS WAS THE BEST THING I HAVE EVER DONE OUT OF LOVE AND SELFLESSNESS FOR MY BABY GIRL MADELINE DAWN CLARK. BORN APRIL 2ND, 2020. SHE CAME AT 36 WEEKS WEIGHING IN ONLY AT 5LBS AND 8 OZ ...LIKE A LIVING DOLL SO TINY!!! IM USING CAPS BECAUSE THIS TEXT IS SO SMALL!!! I FOUND THIS PAGE TONIGHT AS I NEEDED SUPPORT AS THE BIRTH MOM. OCTOBER 3RD SHE WILL BE 6 MONTHS OLD. IM TELLING YOU I HAVE DONE HARD THINGS IN MY LIFE BUT AS FAR AS VOLUNTARILY THINGS THIS WAS THE MOST EARTH SHATTERING THING ILL EVER DO. ITS STRANGE TO STILL MISS HER SO MUCH BUT BE SO HAPPY FOR HER MOM AND DAD. I GAVE HER AN AMAZING FAMILY! WE DONT GET TO PICK OURS BUT I HOPE THIS VIDEO I MADE HER THAT TOOK ME A LONG TIME LOL BC IVE NEVER MADE ONE LIKE THAT BEFORE. IT WAS MY LETTER TO HER LIKE YOU WOULD DO IN THE OLD TIMES BUT WITH PICTURES, VIDEOS, AND MUSIC BY STEPHEN CURTIS CHAPLAIN. MY SON AND MOTHER GOT TO MEET HER FINALLY WHEN I FELT I COULD HANDLE GOING TO VIRGINIA TO SEE THEM ALL. MY SON JUST FELL INLOVE W HER AND OMG IT BROKE MY HEART BC IT BROKE HIS TO NOT BRING HOME HIS SISTER. HE SAID HE WOULD KEEP HER CRIB RIGHT NEXT TO HIS BED AND A GUN UNDER THE BED SO IF ANYONE BROKE IN HE WOULD PROTECT HIS BABY SISTER.ߘ°ߥڰߘԢݤ️❤️❤️❤️❤️ I KNEW HE WOULD JUST LOVE HER TO PIECES BUT I DIDNT EXPECT THE PROTECTIVENESS TO COME OUT SOMETHING. I GUESS W THE WORLD GONE CRAZY A SIX YEAR OLD WOULD THINK HE NEEDED TO PROTECT HER. I TOLD NOT TO WORRY BC SHE HAD HER DADDY MR. DAVID AND HER OTHER BROTHER BARRETT WHICH IS ALMOST 5 NOW AND LIAM IS A LITTLE JEALOUS. OTW HOME THE CAR RIDE WAS SO QUIET AS WE WERE ALL EMOTIONALLY DRAINED LOST IN THOUGHT. LIAM SAID, "I WISH DAVID WAS MY DAD." AND I KNEW HE MEANT IT TOO BC HIS DAD ABANDONED US BASICALLY THREE YEARS AGO. I BROKE UP WITH HIM N KICKED HIM OUT BC HE WAS STRUNG OUT ON DRUGS. I THOUGHT HED GO TO REHAB AND COME BACK, NOT CALL SOME WOMAN TO PICK HIM UP THREE BLOCKS DOWN THE ROAD AND LIVE OFF HER TILL HE GOT MYSELF IN HEAPS OF TROUBLE BREAKING IN BUSINESSES AND STEALING MONEY OUT THE SAFES AND EVENTUALLY GETTING CAUGHT. SO LIAM WISHES MADELINES DAD I FOUND HER WAS HIS DAD. I DONT BLAME HIM. HES AN EXCELLENT FATHER AND KATIE IS AMAZING!!! SHE WAS MY SUPPORT PERSON THROUGH THE INDUCTION AND BECAUSE OF COVID ONLY ONE PERSON COULD BE IN THE HOSPITAL AT ALL FOR ME! AND WHOEVER THAT PERSON WAS COULD NOT LEAVE OR THEY COULD NOT COME BACK IN OR SWITCH OUT WITH KATIE. INDUCTION CAN TAKE THREE DAYS. WELL IT TOOK MINE TWO AND IT WAS A HARD HARD HARD TWO. EPIDERHAL FAILED ME LAST MINUTE AND I FELT IT ALL!!!!!! KATIE NEVER LEFT ME THOUGH. I HAD ONLY MET HER ONE OTHER TIME WHEN DAVID KATIE AND BARRETT DROVE DOWN FROM VA TO MEET ME MY SON AND MOM. THERE IS A PICTURE IN THE BEGINNING OF THIS VIDEO FROM THAT VISIT. THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO TAKES THE TIME TO READ A BIRTH MOTHERS STORY. I LOVE MY DAUGHTER SO MUCH AND KNQWING GOD LITERALLY SHOWED ME THEIR PROFILE AND IN MY HEART I KNEW THEY WERE THE ONES. THEY WERE PROFILE NUMBER 9 OUT OF LIKE 34 THEY SENT ME REAL QUICK. LIKE EVERYONE WANTED HER LOL. IVE HAD AN ABORTION WHEN I WAS 23, I KEPT MY SON BECAUSE HIS FATHER AND I WERE SOULMATES I THOUGHT BUT SO GLAD TO HAVE LIAM HE IS A WONDERFUL CHILD!!! SO SMART AND HANDSOME. THEN I WAS DEVASTATED OVER THE BREAK UP W HIS FATHER SO I HAVE BEEN SINGLE FOR 3 YEARS. LAST YEAR I WENT OUT W THIS GUY THAT HAS BEEN CRUSHING ON ME FOREVER. I WAS JUST SO LONELY TBH. AND I DONT DRINK SO WHEN I HAD TWO DRINKS I WAS DRUNK AND THINGS HE HAS TO BE EMBARRASSED ABOUT OCCURRED ߘưߘ AND AT 30 I FIGURED I WASNT THAT FERTILE ANYMORE SO DONT WASTE THE MONEY ON PLAN B. WELL I AM STILL FERTILE AS CAN BE. I TOLD HIM I COULDN'T HAVE ANOTHER ABORTION BECAUSE I HAVE NEVER FORGIVEN MYSELF OR FORGOTTEN IT. HE TALKED ALL THE PRACTICAL REASONS WHY WE SHOULD KILL HER.....SMFH. I KNEW HE WAS RIGHT THAT I COULDNT HANDLE A BABY RIGHT NOW N HE BASICALLY FORCED ME TO THAT ABORTION CLINIC. HE HANDS ME ENOUGH XANAX TO NOT REMEMBER SHIT AND I SAW PROTESTERS W SIGNS THAT SAID GOD LOVES U AND UR BABY. PLEASE DONT KILL THEM. I LOCKED EYES WITH THE SIGN HOLDER. HE KNEW I DIDNT WANT TO BE THERE. WHEN WE GOT OUT THE CAR HE YELLED MAMM DONT LISTEN TO HIM, THE DEVIL IS A LIAR. GOD LOVES YOU! DONT KILL YOUR BABY!! .......OMG I WAS LIKE TRAUMATIZED B4 I GOT IN. TOOK THE XANAX AND THEN DIDNT WAIT LONG. I WAS ON THE ULTRASOUND TABLE WHEN I DEMANDED THEY TURN THE SCREEN AND SHOW ME MY 13 WEEK OLD BABY. I BURST INTO TEARS. SAID I CANT DO THIS AND I WONT. I LOOKED AT THIS NURSE WHO WAS TRYING HER BEST TO CALM ME DOWN SO I WOULD NOT DRAW ATTENTION TO THE GIRLS RIGHT THERE WITNESSING ME SAYING HELL NO. SHE WAS A NICE NURSE BUT I SAID, IDK HOW U LAY YOUR HEAD DOWN EVERY FUCKING NIGHT DOING THE MOST EVIL JOB U COULD DO. YOU GUYS ARE MURDERING BABIES, SELLING THE BODY PARTS AND DESTROYING SOME OF US WOMEN WHO WERE RAISED CHRISTIAN AND KNOW THE TRUTH. ONCE U CONCEIVE THATS LIFE AND NOT YOUR LIFE BUT A WHOLE NEW LIFE AND LAST TIME I CHECKED NONE OF US ARE GOD. IM PROCHOICE AND PROLIFE. WOMEN SAY WHAT??? YEAH WE HAVE THE RIGHT AS WOMEN TO REFUSE ACCESS TO WHOMEVER WE SO CHOOSE. WE HAVE PROBABLY 50 DIFF TYPES OF BIRTH CONTROL SO WE DON'T HAVE TO BE IRRESPONSIBLE AND IF WE CHOOSE TO HAVE SEX AND CHOOSE NOT TO TAKE B.C. THEN IN THE NEXT 72 HOURS YOU CAN CHOOSE PLAN B SO U DONT GET PREGO. SO WE HAVE CHOICES OVER OUR BODIES!!! BUT NOT SOMEONE ELSES BECAUSE THEIR LIFE INTERRUPTS YOUR PLANS. 67% OF UNPLANNED PREGNANCIES IN AMERICA END IN ABORTION. 32% END UP HAVING THEM N KEEPING THEM. 1% GIVE THEM UP FOR ADOPTION. THAT IS SO SAD. AND AS A WOMAN THATS DONE ALL 3, YES ITS HARD AND IT BREAKS UR HEART LEAVING WITHOUT HER BUT WOMEN ARE SO MUCH STRONGER THAN WE THINK WE ARE. GOD JUST REIGNED DOWN BLESSINGS SINCE I WALKED OUT THAT CLINIC STILL CARRYING MADELINE. KATIE AND DAVID GAVE HER MY MIDDLE NAME. ANYONE WHO HAS ANY QUESTIONS OR WANTS TO TALK U CAN HMU

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Kerisun Cheberachko

how is it?

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Amanda Love

What do u mean exactly? How am I?

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