About the names

Yes, so a year ago I found out my birth last names and that there was another child before me in the birth indexx. She is older then me. I know with the last names that things will move fast now. It was tonight that I began a letter to my first mom. I gave her general infomation on me. Where I grew up, that I had two older brothers. I told her about my pets. It was kind of a long letter but i didn't tell her anything that I thought might make her not like me. I wrote the letter outside so I could smoke as I wrote. I did not re read it as that has been a long running rule :Don't ever re read something because you might change what you wrote. And to change it might turn it into less then the real truth. I pulled it out of my spirial book, then threw it away. Why did I throw it away? Anyway, that was a year ago. It was looking like an exciting time. I knew her last name after all. The worst she could do was tell me that she didn't want to know me. But even at that I knew I'd be a pest until she at least told me who the rest of the people in my family were. And deep down I had hoped she would want to know me but I was setting myself up for the chance that she didn't. I did after all finally have a small support team. The forums. My hubby. Most of all my searcher. So I was ready..............Right? (side nore, I had to edit my last entry as I did not yet know ehr first name)