LAst night there was a show we watched that we had tivo'd called "Intervention". Well when it came on the shows family was Chuck of Three Dog Night. His son Chuckie has a heroin problem.
I looked at my husband and said "Geez are you kidding me? Is this a sign" and he smiled and said he didn't know either.
Well I'm not sure what it was but I made a bad move........or I thought it was bad. Maybe it was one of the best moves I've made lately.
Over a year ago I sent a letter to Melody telling her who I am as well as who her birth parents were (as usual I could find her birth father but not my own. Her's being a member of TDN). She didn't reply and so I let it be knowing she was going through a divorce (per her ). Last night I went to yahoo and typed in her name. Two entries came up one had her work # and email. I emailed a very simple one said "If you are Melody born July 63 I have medical information for you if not please let me know." Oh ya, she replied. Said no more contact final. I replied, you knew I would. Just said I was not aware you got my contact letter and will cease all contact. Regards Wendy. Well so she replied, What don't you get, final.
Ok. Your way.
Here's the thing.
How did I get this so wrong??
I mean the whole thing.
There are some serous "B" in this bloodline isn't there??!! LOL
So JEd and Carolyn, I am doing my best really I am. I am trying to keep in my own buisness and life but find it really hard at times to understand why I was allowed to think, search, look and wonder about this birth family for so many years to get answers only. How do I learn to walk away. I mean really walk away and not look back. How do I give up on finding my birth father (knowing darn well that will turn into a disaster as well!)
What the heck do I take from all of this??
I've done my best to be the best person I can be.