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hi i understand your pain. i suffer from what i call the end of the year syndrom. the state took my 2 daughters about 6yrs ago. thier father was abusive and i just kept going back. anyway either way my daughters and i paid in the end. some times i feel like they were legally kidnapped and i wonder if they will hate me. i know in one year they were in 30 foster homes. i failed them and cant be mad if they decide they never want to see me again. one of them will be 9 the day before halloween and the other will be 13 on new years eve. the end of the year is so hard and time is not healing the wounds. i now am 30 and have a 2yr old and her father is wonderful not violent or any of that but it just makes me feel more guilty sometimes and i wish i knew a way for her to still have a chance to grow up with her older sisters,but i dont know where they are of course and i think that thats probably not going to ever happen.
i have a ways to go and sorry i couldnt cheer you up but i can understand!!!!!!!!:(