Felling Hopeles

I have all of these feeling of hopelessness because I want to be a mommy so badly and yet my husband is not on board yet! He tells me things like when we finish the remodle on the house or when the economy picks up! I mean he tells me that he wants to adopt but he keeps coming up with all of the reason why we can't move forward! I guess I just need to get somethings off of my chest! i wish that he would be honest with me and himself. I have gave up the idea of having a newborn and I have moved on to loving the idea of adopting from foster care which considerably reduces the costs involved with the process and still I get the same things. I have days when i am fine and then I have times when I am ready to just stay in bed and cry the day away! I know that there are a lot of people who are out there that are worse off than we are but I can't help feeling empty inside because I have this need to help a child grow into a wonderful self suffient adult! I want to be the mother that I never had! I guess I should be happy for what I have but I can't help but keep coming back to this. Thank you for listening to me get somethings off of my check best of luck to all of you who are searching for the missing pieces! Niece