feeling sad

My nephew has been on my mind for some time and now that i have an email address for him i thought i could write to him and tell him about his dad . well that hasnot worked out and i'm blue. i want to get to know him and for him to met us and then decided if he wants us in his life. My brother has died and my nephew has cold feet, I have pictures and stories to share with him alas not to be ... now i feel as if i've let him down and that i can'nt explain to him what a great love for him we all have. thanks for letting me speak my mind with these hard toughts..