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Well today is my bdaughters 19th BD. I add yet another card to the box of cards I have bought her every year.
I sit here in tears as I write this. I love her and miss her so much. So far all I have heard well its been 19 years and your still acting this way every year. These people don't understand what its like giving a part of you a piece of your soul away.
I tried to sleep but I am awoken yet again from the same dream over and over again. The sound of her crying as they take her back to the nursery and I have to leave the hospital and go home.. Alone..
I am blubbering on and I am sorry..
Happy birthday my little one..
Be safe and remember I love you and miss you and not a moment goes by that I don't think of you and I dream of the day I can finally see you again....
I WILL PROBABLY BE THE SAME WAY ON MY DAUGHTER'S BIRTHDAYS NO MATTER HOW OLD SHE IS.
NEVER BE ASHAMED OF LOVING YOUR CHILD OR CRYING FOR THEM. THEY ARE A PART OF YOU. NO ONE COULD EVER CHANGE THAT.
gOD BLESS
SUSANA
P.S. IF YOU NEED TO TALK CALL ME 773-213-5662
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Hi,
I am working on an adoption book. It's an anthology of birthday writings from birthparents to the their children. I want to trace the healing process, the ups and downs over the years, and highlight the patterns in things that birthparents feel throughout the years. I would love to include this short piece if you would like to contribute to it. But, if this is a private feeling that you wanted to express, I can certainly understand that too. If interested, please email me at alyceahuebsch@hotmail.com.
Thanks,
Alycea