Frustrated and overwhelmed

Hello everyone,Boy am I feeling overwhelmed today. I spoke to another agency on my lunchbreak, and while they seemed a LOT better than the previous ones I'd spoken with, it turns out that they only work with straight, married couples. When I indicated that I'm willing to consider gay couples (I live in a very liberal corner of the state, where there are many families headed by gay couples and from what I've seen, they do just as good a job as str8 couples do, including some parents of kids I babysat for) they got kind of snotty with me, like I should PREFER to have my baby be in a home with a str8 couple and shouldn't consider a gay couple unless it was a last resort. Grrrrrrr!! :mad: I said "thanks for the information" and hung up before I could blow, but I think my boss saw the steam coming out of my ears after that call!! It was after that phone call, I realized that none of the websites I've been looking at profiles of adopting parents on have any gay couples listed. I've been looking at a few that came up when I did a Google search and that I found through ad links on this website, but I'm not sure if it is OK to say what the sites are here? Anyway, I can't believe this is because there aren't any gay couples who want to adopt, so once again I feel my blood pressure rising. I'm not saying I specifically want a gay couple for my child, but I'm saying I'd like the option of looking at ALL couples, not just the str8 ones!! I think I am going to start scouring newspapers for ads, since that seems to be a "fair" domain for anyone to place an ad. If I could find an agency that works with both str8 and gay couples, I'd be really happy. It seems to me that a place that discriminates against one group of people in one regard can't be fair and above-board in all aspects then, you know what I'm saying?Other than this revalation today, I've been feeling quite overwhelmed in general, and have been exhausted by the late afternoon too. I don't think I'm depressed or anything, just wiped out. The NP at my OBGYN says it is hormones. Yippie!! Plus, I've started feeling queasy after taking my prenatal vitamins each morning, so now I feel guilty because I haven't taken them in 2 days. I'm going to see if maybe getting a different kind will help me feel less queasy, but man they are NOT cheap.I wish that I could have some of my old energy back. I haven't gone out in weeks, when I used to go line dancing once or twice a week. Some of my friends are getting pretty P.O.'d at me about how much I bag on them, too. We have a place we like to go to get dessert and coffee and hang out, they have music and poetry and open mike nights, and I haven't been able to stay up late enough to meet up with them in a while. I have no desire to do anything besides sleep, and I feel kind of bloated after every meal, when I'm not puking whatever I ate, even saltines!! I guess I just have to suck it up and deal with it for the next few months, but that doesn't make it any better!! I do not know how my mom did this THREE times!! She says she had morning sickness like I do, and she said she had really bad heartburn twice, which means the baby will have a lot of hair. I know my brother and I did when we were born, so maybe that isn't just an old wives tale. :)Sigh!! I guess the positive side, the silver lining as my grandmom always used to say, is that I have come up with a list of what I am looking for in a family for the baby. I'm hoping to find a family without other kids, with younger parents, and with two parents. I was reading another thread here and there were birthmothers discussing their feelings about when families who adopted their kids adopted other kids. I think I'd be okay with the adopting family of this baby to adopt again in the future, I just want my baby to be the first. Is that weird? I'm also debating on finding out if the baby is a boy or a girl. Every place I've talked to has asked me if I'm going to find out. I don't think I'd want a family to want my baby only if it is a boy or a girl. I mean, if they were pregnant themselves it isn't like they could pick, right? Ya get what ya get, if you know what I mean! ;)Thank you for listening to me vent. I am going to watch some TV and take a bath, which hopefully will make me feel better!!Sincerely,Maralee