Where is my Courage?

I would wait for adoption myself, but surrogacy kinda skeeves me, that is why.Oh Storm,you have been through way too much in such a short time.I think it is still too early to give up on this pbm.Hang in there. Is foster/adopt possible? Through the county?

Where is your courage? Your courage is right here. You are expressing yourself and reaching out. You are supporting others and you are inspiring others. You are not alone. In your signature, you said "Shaken but not deterred." Give yourself time. You have gone through one of the most horrible experiences an adoptive parent can have. You have lived through everyone's worst fears. Of course you are shaken. Of course you are questioning yourself. But here you are, still reaching out to others. I read where you were asking about Mail Lady's cat. Your strength is right here. Look at all the happy stories on the other boards. You will be one of those one day. You deserve that. We all deserve that. Look at what we have all been through. And look at the others who have crossed over from this board to the happy board. Stormster, you will have a baby to love soon. You have done all the research and paperwork and had your home studied. You are ready. Believe it.

Hey, Stormster, I'm sorry you're so depressed. Easy for me to say, huh? Yeah, it is now. See, my 19 month old daughter and her Daddy are napping peacefully. Three years ago, we had really had it. We were pretty much giving up. And now we're parents. Who would have thought? I'm not saying I know how you feel. Its insulting to say such things. But I do know where you're coming from. And I'm sorry for how you feel. Take care of yourself.

Gwenn,I wouldn't give up on this pbmom just yet. It is the weekend and she might be busy. And maybe your expectations are a little high right now. She is still working through emotions too. And as far as your courage, well you are one of the bravest people I know right now. With everything you have been through your is still leading you down the path of adoption. I think that is courageous!

You are so right,oh and add the fact that she doesn't have a phone to the equation. I'm impatient but I am still working hard on that. I am just so tired today. I guess it's the depression. My sister is coming to get me for a few hours while all the guys watch the SBowl. But all I want to do is close my eyes and sleep and wake up when I have another baby in my arms. How stupid that sounds but it's true. After coming so close I just have all those mommy chemicals. I want to call my sister and say forget it. But I know that won't work. She's always so up and happy ugh she's so ANNOYING...!!!!

I can't tell you how many times, while working for an adoption agency, a potential adoptive mom would call losing her courage and wanting to give up. And I can't tell you how many times, within a VERY SHORT PERIOD OF TIME, a placement happened for them and those "labor pains" disappeared. You've been through a very difficult time. Give yourself time to heal and vent here when you need to. We're all in this with you. Sending strong karma your way. Josie

Oh stormster, I'm a pain I know here. I don't mean to be. But even at my most annoying times you are all my voices of reason and hope. Your baby is out there, I swear it is! We are all holding your hand, holding your heart. We even got you under the arm pits helping you stand up straight! Your blessing is coming, keep your heart!! Don't give up yet!! Your baby will find you! Everything happens for a reason, I know that's no comfort, but before it's all said and done. You will have your signature with a little age chart too! I hold your hand, I shed a tear, and send you big fat hugs! Let us be your courage everyone here! DO NOT GIVE UP!!! Your baby is out there, he will find you.

I'll be strong, I have to be! But I'm wiser too. This morning the NA woman called again but her 21 year BF wants to name the baby, be at the birth, have a profile sent ....and I can feel after talking to him that he is having tremendous doubts. That's fine. But not for me. At least I know this up front though. And next time maybe we will be able to take the Dad's word for it when he says he'll place. I guess what I mean is I'm rolling with the punches but I'm going to duck when I see one coming. LOL Thanks again for your support. I DO believe 79 percent of the time that our angel is right around the corner. I think it's so ironic that this recent couple wants the child to be called Michael (Ryan Micahel) ALL our potential placements have been boys. Five in all. AND four of them have had mothers with Red hair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Kinda makes me wonder what THAT's about!

Oh stormster, I'm a pain I know here. I don't mean to be. But even at my most annoying times you are all my voices of reason and hope. Your baby is out there, I swear it is! We are all holding your hand, holding your heart. We even got you under the arm pits helping you stand up straight! Your blessing is coming, keep your heart!! Don't give up yet!! Your baby will find you! Everything happens for a reason, I know that's no comfort, but before it's all said and done. You will have your signature with a little age chart too! I hold your hand, I shed a tear, and send you big fat hugs! Let us be your courage everyone here! DO NOT GIVE UP!!! Your baby is out there, he will find you.