TODAY! June 6

This morning I have asked GOD: You have shown your hand in this to us.I pray today that you show your hand to the courts and the judges that will decide my daughters future. What did GOD do? HE gave us an angel to comfort and give us strength and courage to make sure we still believe he is with us. Today that angels name is CHRISTIE. Thankyou so much GOD BLESS

My thoughts and prayers are with each of them today. I cannot imagine what they are going through, and I am just praying that through it all God will be standing by them. I believe God blessed them and allowed them to be in these angel's lives for a reason. I feel their pain and all the emotions. Also, know I am here for them also if they need someone to listen, or just to be there. This forum is such a great place for support, and spiritual guidance and most of all for friends who are going through contested adoptions. Just remember God is with us all, and He listens to our prayers!! God Bless:wings:

I logged on this morning before everyone else is up because I can't sleep. I feel so blessed to have so many kind wishes and thoughts and prayers. I don't know how I am going to make it through today. I held Isaac in my arms last night so that I could remember the way his little toddler arms felt around my neck (he is 16 months old). I smelled his neck and hair and tried to memorize his hands. I stared in his eyes and told him over and over that I loved him and would NEVER forget him. I tried to drink in every part of that sweet little boy so that when I'm feeling sad I can recall my memories of him. The kids were all dancing last night to some music we had on and we videoed them rocking out to the music. I sat in the corner and laughed and cried as Isaac bounced and rocked along with his siblings. How do I help my other children through this? They don't quite understand that Isaac is not coming back. So much pain, and so much love for Isaac. Thank you for your thoughts and prayers. I'll let you all know how it went. Please, please, please ask for angels to surround Isaac in the days to come. The man we are returning him to has a history of violence. I pray that Isaac will not be harmed and that this man will step up and do the right things for Isaac. Daddyangel, good luck today. I pray for a judge that is wise and kind. I pray that things go well for you. Christie, Kelly, Amy and everyone else who has had such kind words and help, thank you! You are all truly angels for us. Our family feels so blessed by adoption, even though today is so hard. We are blessed to have you all with us today in our hearts. Cheryl Mother of five still in my heart!

My thoughts and prayers are with both of these families today.......

Daddy's Angel, Cheryl, Christie, you ALL have me crying reading this. It is a miracle of sorts that you all have never even met but been such a support to each other. Cheryl, I so feel your pain and cannot even begin to find words for you. When I thought we would lose Natalie, I stared at her the same way you did with Isaac today. And I still do, every day, because the fear has never left me. I hope that the days after today get better just a little each day. I hope that your other children find a way to accept what has happened. He certainly will NEVER leave your heart or your mind. I cannot even imagine . . . Daddy's Angel, please write when you can. I so pray for you today and every day. I know that God will see to keep your daughter in the only home she knows and where she is loved and cared for so completely. Christie, you are such a blessing to everyone on this board who knows you. Through all you are experiencing yourself, you still find time and a place in your heart for others. As we all look back over the last few years, the joy and the pain, I hope we can realize how blessed we are to have each other. I love you all. Josie

I was surprisingly calm yesterday. I cried and held him and cried as each of the children said goodbye. My attorney could not believe how CA agents came loaded for a fight. We were so glad he was there and helping us. We turned Isaac over and left. I felt like I was leaving a part of me behind. It was so hard. I cried and then it was as if I wasn't me anymore. I felt very disconnected from the situation and my actions were numb and automatic for the rest of the day. I'm feeling better today. My dear sister is flying in to help me and allow me to break down if I want to. My husband is flying out to see his dying grandfather. I pray still for Isaac. I hope he didn't cry too much last night. I pray that his birth father was gentle and understanding. I pray we will all make it through this stronger. Thank you all again for your thoughts and prayers. Daddysangel-I can't believe they messed up on the time. How frustrating. This isn't a traffic violation-this is a child's life. Why don't some people seem to understand the importance of what we are trying to do. Love and thanks to all, Cheryl

Reading your post puts a lump in my throat.When stupid stuff like this happens I slip into thought of having to do the same thing. She is going to be 9yrs old and we have raised her since birth and I do not think she would go peacefully and it would break my heart and probably bring me to a point of anger which would land me in jail. I pray that if it ever happens to where we would have to do that we would handle it as well as you have. My wife was extremely upset and said the same thing.We're not trying to save our house from foreclousure this is my daughter,dosen't anyone of these people understand that. She has a hard time with all this so my only response was "Don't read more into it then need be". My honest answer would have been with anger "OH your just figuring that out". Hopefully they make the right decision and if they do not I am hoping they will explain to our understanding why they did not. GOD BLESS

Oh sweetheart i am just sitting hear crying along with you. I love you know. Sometimes you just don't know what to saym and i am at that point. I just love you and praying for you and your family.