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Hi, Im 15 years old and just found out in march that I am pregnant. My boyfriend is 5 years older than me so hecould go to jail for it. He basically told me that he wanted me to get an abortion because with our age difference and me needing to be in school it is not the right time to have a baby.
I told him I would have the abortion because I know I cant do it without him. See if my family knew (its now july and they still dont know) they would kick me out and completely disown me. I cant take care of a baby by myself. I had no choice but to agree to an abortion which is completely against everything I believein.
We began thinking of how we would go about this...ince we couldnt aford an abortion nor did we want to tell my mother. Then he read that depo-provera the birth control I had previously been on would simply abort the baby..I aggreed to get my shot and hoped it would all be over.
I got my shot in Apriland thought my pregnancy was over and was trying to move on hating myself for the terrible thing I had done. But recently I feel and think that I am still pregnant. Im gaining weight, i look pregnant, I eat more, I urinate constantly, and I have feelings of movement in my stomache like the baby is kicking...I havent told my boyfriend about these symptoms because Im at a loss on what I should do.I feel horrible, like I have ruined my life and I dont deserve to even live myself. I hate myself for this everyday and every time I feel a movement in my stomache.
No one ever knew but me and my boyfriend i have no one to talk to...I need advice....Im lost and i dont know what to do..can someone please help me?!?!?! Thank you or listening to my story :confused:
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Wow, I was 15 and pregnant many years ago. Things were so much different then. We didn't have choices. I don't know you.......its too late for abortion and your boyfriend, I am sure you love him, but really he is a jerk. If he truly loved you he would be by your side and take care of you........but really he is too old for you. There are places you could go to have the baby and give it up for adoption. There are so many people wanting children that can't have them. I had to give up my son, but later in my life, I also adopted. You need to tell your mom. She may be hurt and upset at first, but a mom should be there for you to help you through all of this. You need to get some care from a doctor to. I will be your email buddy through this......you can email me and we will start a friendship. I will be there day or night to talk to you. Sounds like you need a friend. I have had foster children younger than you give birth. You reached out on here, go ahead and reach out to me now.
Right now its important to take care of your health and your babys. I assume you haven't been seeing a doctor. That is something you have to do. Email me...I will be your friend.
Pat
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You need to get real, live support and fast. There are agencies that offer maternity support and adoption services. PM me if you need help finding one. You need to tell your parents or another trusted adult (maybe the mom of a friend, a neighbor or a relative?). You should not be going through this alone. Does your mom even know you have a 20 year old boyfriend? This guy really does not have your, or your baby's best interest in mind.
I am sending you a PM with my contact info. Let me help you find someone in your area that can help you through this crisis....
Oh goodness! I can't imagine how you feel... I am so sorry that you are alone, and that your boyfriend is being unsupportive. PLEASE, PLEASE find an adult you can trust to help you! I know you feel your parents would be extremely upset, but often parents do come around-do you feel there is any chance they would? How about a friends mom? Please keep us updated on how you are-there is hope, and help out there!