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Hi, My name is Jolene, I am 24 years old living in Buffalo,NY. I found out I was pregenat a few weeks ago and I have the intial appointment next Thursday. I have already decided I am giving my child up for adoption, decided on Open adoption. I am in a state of, I don't even know right now. Although I think this is the best option for everyone involved esp the child, I feel pushed in to the decision. My family is not happy I am pregenat, so I feel I have no other choice but to give this child up for adoption. On the other hand, I know I can not raise this child alone. I have some mental problems that make it near impossible to raise a child alone. I already have a 4 year old son whose autistic that lives with his father because of my problems. I would really like to talk to someone in my situation or someone who has been in my situation about this. I have no one here, my friends are awesome but although they try to understand they can not possibly understand.