thank you.iso bm-i was born 10-23-74 oak lawn, IL

I want to spill my guts a bit here to start, before giving the "stats". This is a new "adventure" that I have placed on my back burner for many, many years. I had a wonderful family and have struggled with guilt over deciding whether to search or not. My adoptive mother admitted to having fear for the first part of my life...never knowing if one day my BM would come and take me away. This was in '74, the adoption was closed, yet I imagine this feeling is prevalent for any adoptive mother. This I understand. It was quite amazing for my Adoptive mom to admit this to me as a young adult. She is very supportive now, and has been for years. She left it up to me. I hesitate often, but have always dreamed of looking into my BM's eyes. That's all...just a glance. I have these big brown eyes...does she?? I am artistic..is she/or he? I often envy friends who can look at their parents and see their features in them, their talents owed to Mom or Dad. I wonder what part genetics plays in my life. This forum is for thank you's. Well...a thank you goes out to my "starter mommy". This term was used early on when my adoptive parents started explaining it all to me. I thank them, too, for always being open and honest. I always knew, but it was a part of me...I never really thought about it until my teens. Even then, I was happy and content and let it be. Thank You Birth Mom, where ever you are. Thank you for life. Thank you for my 33 years thus far..for allowing me to find love in a marriage..for the dream of a family of my own. Thank You. I hope to find you........ I was born October 23, 1974. It was a private adoption with a lawyer named Alan Neideman(sp?). I was born in Oak Lawn, Illinois at Christ Memorial/Community Hospital. My birth parents' last name is Leavitt. I think the hospital is now Advocate Christ Medical Center in Oak Lawn, IL. I am told my Birth Father was Polish, and Birth Mother (a young teen), was Irish/German/Dutch? I am 33 and married 1 year ago. I have always been curious and would love to connect in some way..even if it is to get family medical history with no other questions asked, if preferred. I am open to any type of relationship. I heard my maternal grandmother had breast cancer..I would like to know more. I hope we can connect in some way..it has been 33 years. I am very happy, adjusted, successful, and ask for very little. Anonymity can be accommodated.