In my process of learning more about adoption I have found how unselfish it is to choose to put your child up for adoption. It sounds like you want what is best for your child!
The problem I have with the whole "choosing adoption is a selfless act'" line of thinking is that it implies that choosing to parent is selfish. Choosing to parent might be the best thing for your baby.
Parenting requires a lifetime of selfless acts. As a parent, you are always putting your child's needs first. Please note I said
needs not
wants. Children need love, attention, guidance and someone they can look up to. They need food, shelter and clothing. Anything else is extras. You may have all you need for your baby to thrive.