X post. Can I get my own foster care records?

this is really frustrating. I keep getting the run around. I just want to see my own records. I want to ( honestly) find the name of the man that raped me. Idon't think i'll beabble to move on until I get this. I didn't know the man and he grabbed me and raped me I know he went to prision and would like to see how long etc It is just something I NEED so I can move on.