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i was not adopted through a faith based agency but ive always been a catholic...ive lost both my grandmas 10 years apart...when i was little i was always at church on sunday mornings did my religious classes and served the church...when i lost my seconnd grandma i questioned god so many times and i still do...i lost faith in him for a whil in for the first time in about 4 years i am fully back in church...ive been back a year and im a oart of our teen youth group...but it still is not the same...i feel out of place at times and i dont feel like i fit in...ive also realized that i am not fully open to being at church and pouring my whole life in gods hands...during adoration is when i loose it and cry...its there that i say god this is who i am i want to be ur daughter and live the right life...ive questioned you for so long but i ask that u take me under your wings and help me...
what else can i do to really feel like this is the rght thing...that i am fully back and how do i open up more with other members of the church
Is there any church member that you have always related to? That you could talk to one on one truthfully?
I would expect that what you are going through is quite normal for any person as they become more mature, questioning of ones core beliefs - look at it as a way to confirm what you believe is the right belief and answering any lingering doubts. Questioning anything is not wrong, it is the path to finding what is right for you.
Kind regards,
Dickons
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thanks guys....and ya there is someone i can talk to that is my age and kinda understands what i am going through and how i feel about some thing...its not easy for me to open up to people so its hard...but i think after our car ride tuesday i can really open to her...just hard when u have been set in this faith for such a long time and yet feel a sence of being loss
Everyone goes through questioning stages in their life. Try to look at it that if no one ever questioned the status quo we would still be living in caves and not have fire...
It is always good to question things - then you know you have done the research to know it is right for you.
Talk to your friend.
Kind regards,
Dickons
Priscilla, I am an adoptee and read your post- I asked my Catholic friend adoptee named Lori to share her insights on your questions:
" If you want to write her back my thoughts about the Catholic Church....You can tell her that your Catholic adoptee friend feels that the best part about being a Catholic to me is receiving the Eucharist, the blessed body and blood of Christ. A blessed host is an inconceivable, unbelievable thing to wrap around our human heads...and it is with the Catholic community together that we receive and try to grasp this truth. It certainly is not the members of the church that will make us feel like we fit in (they are sinners too), we may never feel the fitting in (like a little scratch that Jesus got when suffering on the cross)... but it is the weekly sacrament that sustains us until the next time. Being a member of a faith community is a blessing and to keep on going and find other outlets to "fit in" outside of the Church, find ways to heal all the wounds of our lives and continue in that process all the days of our lives, and TRUST....with prayer. Losing it...in adoration...is awesome healing waters.....cleansing....in my mind......and above all else, serve others! I feel the Holy Spirit tingling my body as I read what a mature, aware Christian person this adoptee is at such a young age....I feel God has a grip and is guiding this person to serve HIM. I do not hear where or what but with the loss from adoption and with grandmas, she will touch others to help them heal. Perhaps not focus on "feeling the right thing" but to pray for guidance and to get this prayer and search the many scriptures to go along with guidance, community, and healing.......If you only give her a few words......focus on the Eucharist not the people......God will put people into her life in all the strange places.....like adoption support groups....."
with love and care,
Lori
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thank you so much..
it is such an amazing message you have written back...and i am so thankful for it...ive searched all my life for somewhere to fit in an belong and i am so amazed at what you wrote and how true it is...this past month so far i have been blessed with so many little signs and dreams that everything will be ok and that i know just how much i am loved by god...
i plan on 2 year from now transfering to point loma college in san diego a faith based college to focus on youth ministry and religus education and theology...my whole life i thoght my calling was early childhood education but i now know just where i am ment to be and belong...
through our lord all things are possible and i know he will only give me as much as i can handle even when i think he is giving me too much he knows my limits and will guide me on my journey through life....