New Here

Hi there, I am new here and I have what seems like an overwhelming problem. Some background... I am currently separated from my husband and have been for a couple years. I have 2 great kids. Earlier this year, I met a guy I liked quite a bit but we were just friends and we hung out a few times and well, one thing led to another, and we slept together a few times. At the time, I had an IUD, so we didn't use anything else. Well about a month and a half later, I found out I was pregnant. I went to the doctor, who promptly took out my IUD that failed miserably, and they did an ultrasound, and wow, twins. So not only did I get pregnant using an IUD, I was pregnant with twins. I had told the father I was pregnant, and he freaked out. I then told him it was twins, and I think he had a mild heart attack. I must say that he has been a total saint and stuck by me from day 1. We talked. And we talked some more. I didn't think that I could handle 2 more babies. He doesn't want kids. Ever. Neither of us believe in abortion, so the only option we felt we had was adoption. We met with an agency that I was uneasy about from the beginning. A few weeks after I found out about the twins, I had another ultrasound, and low and behold, there was a third baby. So, after I got done freaking out, I told him and he freaked out some more. But he is still here. We ditched the agency, called a lawyer, and have decided to find a couple online. So I am now 16 weeks pregnant with triplets and I am having so many issues with everything. He doesn't understand alot of my feelings and says I only look at the negative side. Well, this is going to effect me in a huge way. I don't understand how he can be so "everything is going so well" - he isn't the one who's family is pissed, he isn't the one who has to find a way to tell 2 kids, he isn't the one who's body is going through all this, and well, you get the idea. He has since found a girlfriend - oh and one with a 3 year old son - perfect for the guy who doesn't want any kids of any kind ever? I feel like a burden to him - I don't understand why he wants to be with someone else's kid but not his own? He is totally detached from the pregnancy - won't go to appts, doesn't want to see an ultrasound picture, doesn't want to know the sexes, doesn't want to hear I can feel them moving now, etc. I don't know what to do. I know this must all sound totally crazy to you guys...lol I hope to be able to get some support and guidance here. I joined a Triplet board for the info but I don't think I want to put all this out there. Thanks for letting me vent... Allie