Happy Birthday C

Hello All, My brother C, the only child of the three of us that H(biomom) kept and raised, would've been thirty yesterday. Usually, this day is very hard to get through. I would always dwell on what could've or what should've been. Yesterday however, I found myself overjoyed with the memories of that time we did get to spend together. C and I were similiar in many ways and that allowed us to grow as friends as well. Even though, a year and a half later he was gone, I am comforted by those memories. The 'reunion', for the most part, had been labelled a disaster and had been added to my list of regrets but yesterday I removed the reunion from that list. If it had not been or that disasterous reunion, I would not have those precious memories to give me comfort. I still miss him, I always will. And I'll always wonder what I missed out on not having him in my life for 24 years. But I'll never have to wonder what he looked like, acted like, if he knew me, like me or loved me and for that, I am more than grateful.