Holiday Season

Hi, Leigh!I'm sad this year, but it's mainly due to some health problems I'm having. I haven't heard from my son lately, not since I told him about my health issues. I have a feeling I shouldn't have informed him, but I wanted to make sure that his doctors knew he has a family history and predispositon for certain diseases. I do hope my son resurfaces before Christmas...

Leigh... I understand. I read. But don't post much. Not because of a specific person... Just doesn't feel safe. Raven... Being sad during the holidays seems to make "regular" sad... "really bad" sad. You know? I hope it gets better for you. I love Christmas. With 3 little ones at hone it is full of magic and Christmas spirit!! The 2.5 year old is especially fun this season!!

Julie...you are so blessed. Christmas has always been my favorite time of the year. And it is SO magical when little ones are still at home! Treasure these days...your babies will grow up so fast!

(((Raven))) huge hugs to you!!I like having Christmas to myself. I make myself a great meal, have a bottle of wine and a number of movies. I used to go up to my Aunt's in Vrmont but with my current work schedule I don't like a total of a 7 hour drive up and back within 24 hours. So I take a long weekend when we go up and take my time coming back.I just also seem to go thru the holiday blues at the same time.

Raven- sorry to hear you are having health problems. I hope you hear from your son soon. So far this holiday season I am doing well. I am in school full time, work full time and still have a house, a 2 year old, a hubby and an elderly dog who no longer has any control of his bowels to take care of. I think I'm too exhausted to think or feel anything! My last final exam of the semester will be next Tuesday. Next weekend I will finally put my tree up, write Christmas cards and relax. I am a paramedic and am scheduled to work from 7am to 7pm on the 24th, 25th and 26th. Every year that my schedule falls that I have to work on Christmas someone has died. Usually it's from a drunk driving accident but I have had a few cardiac arrests on Christmas too. I am dreading going to work that day. My birthday is on the 27th. I will be 35. It's amazing how I keep turning 35 year after year! :eyebrows: I send everyone best wishes for a wonderful holiday season and a happy new year.

I hope your son does have contact but he may be overwhelmed with the thought of losing you. Just a thought from someone who has been there as a child who was given up and found her birth parents.Things happen for a reason.

Murphy, that's exactly what I think is happening. That's why I kind of regret telling him about my illness. I do think he's scared of losing me again. But I also know that he would have been really, really angry afterwards if I hadn't have told beforehand. I'm kind of caught between a rock and a hard place, a place I often seem to end up, lol.

((((Raven))) I hope you are doing well and your son contacts you soon!!! I'm stressed over family stuff this holiday season. Things are just unecessarily difficult with my parents this year. They aren't sick, but it's getting to the point when I can't deal with being around my mom, she has had a lot of issues lately. I was thinking of telling my family about my DD, but I don't think that right now is a good time! Adoption-wise things couldn't be better! I heard from DD a few weeks ago, and her mom has actually started to comment here and there on Facebook again. This will be the first Christmas that DD and I have contact, I'm going to send them both a quick Merry Christmas message, I don't expect to hear back but it would be nice if I did :) I hope all of you are having a great holiday season. I do more lurking than posting these days, but I'm still here thinking of each and every one of you :)

As hard as it is to cope with the truth; it's the best policy. Give your son some time. Maybe you should call him and tell him your thought on it. Help him see that processing whatever happens is possible. It's funny how people differ. Some people are completely outgoing and are in touch with the emotions and others are introverts who have to be nudged along to express their emotions. My partner tells me not to overwhelm my brothers who I found when I was around 40. I have a hard time with the male, female thing I suppose. I want to embrace them emotionally and get to the point quickly to make up for lost time. One brother is fine with that but I think I scared my other brother because I was so vulnerable when we first became reunited. Being a man my partner can see that...where I don't. Some men are more emotional than others but they seem to hide from their emotions and have difficulty expressing them. Maybe that has some importance in your situation. Men are often socialized to deny some of their emotional needs so they are awkward with the intense emotional stuff. That could be some of it too.

(((Raven))) Sorry to hear you're still having health issues, but I think you were right to be honest with your son... better to be ****ed for telling the truth than for lying [imho]. Hope he comes around soon. Hope you're not having to deal with floods, along with everything else. Soprano