New - my story

Hello fellow birth parents. My name is Cat. I'm a twenty-two year old birth mother of two. I had my first son at the age of eighteen. He just turned three in August. His adoption is pretty closed. I was able to see in twice, when he was two and when he was three. I get pictures once a year. I was resentful about the situation for awhile, but I was also going through a lot with family life as well. I have always loved the family, no doubt about that. I am at a point now where I have accepted it and moved on. I have a one year old son, [technically 14 months on the 29th]. We parented him for 6 months, but life took a huge turn. He is a very sick little boy, allergic to almost everything on the planet and has pulmonary disease. We couldn't do it, and couldn't get his doctors to do anything. So, we did what was best for him. I miss him every single second of every day, but his adoption is fairly open. I only see him once a year, but I get pictures monthly, updates, videos, ect. It's a lot of fun. I am happy with my choice, but...I still wish things where different, that he wasn't sick and stuff. :shrug: All around great story :)