Requesting Prayers of Strength and Patience

I've been a "lurker" for quite some time and I wanted to make sure that each one of you realize just how inspirational you are. I find within this forum such passion, wisdom and prayerful understanding. Thank you all for that and this forum is such a blessing. Right now I am struggling with this journey and feel that in the "outside world" it's so hard to find anyone who has walked in my shoes and thus truly understands what I'm feeling. The short story is that after 2.5 years of infertility treatments (IUI and IVF) my husband and I began the adventure that is domestic adoption last May. After paperwork, home studies and profile generation - we were accepted and "on the books" with a smaller agency as of October 2010. From there, we have waited... Last week we received a call from the agency, only to find out that our profile has been shown multiple times but that those looking have not made it past our front cover as they feel that we are "too old." *sigh* So they asked me to color my hair (my own birth mother *my own true blessing* went totally silver by age 35 and myself at age 32) and retake our photos. We did and our profile was updated last week. I've cried with such a heavy heart and worry that we'll never be matched. I put on that smile and keep myself busy - but inside I'm nervous, worried and petrified. I just want to be a mom. I ache to be a mother. So many around me are having their 2nd, 3rd ... and here I am smiling through the showers and wishing them well - but inside I ache. A simple prayer of patience and strength would be awesome... and please know that your stories encourage me and inspire me and are blessings that help me get through my days. Blessings. (Psalm 46:10 - Be Still.) (Tracy :))