Oh NO! I've got that feeling again!!!

My dh thinks I've totally lost my mind, and I know he is right! but I keep looking at our dds' baby photos on my wall and seeing one more in my mind! I lost my parttime income this year unexpectedly and our finances are tight, secure but tight. There is NO extra $$$ to adopt again, and poor dh really wants to retire once our youngest is out of HS! The plan was for her to finish just before he turns 65, then he'll work parttime for college years and I'll work fulltime for the benefits. Another baby (well, preschooler age child is more in my dreams ) would throw the whole plan out of whack! So I'm trying to ignore that pull and chalk it up to my baby finally really coming into her own and getting ready to fly from our nest to 1st grade in the fall. And maybe someday down the road, maybe I can talk my dh into fostering or something. Besides, our oldest dd desperately does NOT want another child in our family! She does NOT want to share any more of my time and I sort of don't blame her for that either. {sigh} My mother always warned me about how life goes so fast and your children grow in a blink. It just kills me that after how long it took to get them that they have the nerve to go and grow up so darn fast!!! thanks for this little vent, old friends! Hope all are well here!