creative caos / July 6

I discovered today that sometimes letting go is such a cathartic thing. I have real issues with keeping my children close. My open adoption child has been visiting with his grandmother quite a bit and she's not the best at keeping time. I over worry about it and stress myself out. Well today I just let it go, went with the flow and I felt SOOOO MUCH BETTER. In fact I took the opportunity to really enjoy having the one son with me. We went to visit friends, stopped for ice cream and then played in the pool together. Just us. No stress, no worry. Of course now both sons are here and we've been trying to get them in bed for over an hour, but they are so hyped up at seeing each other after being apart all day that they won't settle down. Joy. I'm single mommy-ing it tomorrow as hubby is out of town from sun up to sun down. I'm looking forward to that. As much as I worship and adore him and can't stand to spend even one blissful moment apart (yeah right)... I am looking forward to eating cold finger food with the kids and not having to add small talk / house talk / or any other extranious conversation to my day. I want to nap with the kids, read my book while they play and generally check out for just this one day. And you know what? It is really okay to do that. In fact I highly recommend it. Your kids will be happier because you will be happier. And a happy life starts with a happy wife. Remember that you peeking daddy's. Oh and good news - my orange highlights are gone. I did an over colour of a sable brown and I look hot. Now about those toenails....