My Story -I 've seen both sides of adoption...

Hello All! Here is my story, At age 16 my best friend decided adoption for her unborn baby, I was with her through the entire process and I witnessed the good and the bad. I remember at the time not agreeing but never judgemental or pushing my opinion - I was supportive and I admit it wasn't easy, especially when we went from agency to agency which resulted - My friend who I call sister selecting her own family and to this day is 39yrs old married with 3 kids- Happy and has periodic contact with the family and her daughter. Me and my friend never knew that in just a few years it would start a painful journey as I walked into womanhood... It was a warm day in 2002 when I was rushed to the hospital in severe pain, when I arrive the doctors told me I would need an emergency hysterectomy, at the time I only had one ovary and had been on several medications to help with the pain and bleeding. Many times we tried to get pregnant but each visit with the doctor was negative, she believe that my remaining ovary was too damaged...From age 19 until a couple of years ago I battled with endometriosis so on that day in July of 2002, I had an hysterectomy ..I cried many days after this - knowing I would never be or experience pregnancy...While in the hospital me an my husband decided that we would be parents through adoption. I was reminded that I have a son who loves me - who I have been in his life since he was a month old... He reminded me how I work with our youth at church and how they look at me... My pastor reassured me - He said - "You have alot of love to give and the Lord will see you through it, there is a mother who needs you, there is a child who needs you... Each person has a calling on their life...God knows your heart" ... Many wanted to know why we were adopting, why didn't we get pregnant, this is in short the reason and I feel blessed to love a child regardless if I birth them... I am trusting and I believe that God will bless us in his own time, I am comforted by his word ... I am grateful and secure that God will bless us...