always known

Hello! I wanted to tell my story, so here it goes : - at around 3 yo, I asked my mom if I was in her belly, she answered no, so I asked where I came from : she said I came from Russia, Kirov, my mom had no money to keep me so I was a gift to her and my dad. At the time I didn't understand, later I started to ask myself questions, I never told my parents, I thought they didn't want to talk about it, so they took me see a therapist. I went there for years, nothing ever came out, it's like I'm blocked talking about it... So I stopped, but consider going back. My story is short, but I've found my file and learned things I should have never read..