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Hi,
I have a 3 year old girl who i have attached to fine and a 1 1/2 year old boy whom i can say i dont love yet. we got them as infants. I find myself talking to them like they are just some dumb kids off the street with no respect or love. I take my sons blankets away from him just to make him mad and let him cry, and sometimes i get a small kick out of it. I am short fused and have a temper, so everything seems to set me off and I take the wrong approach towards the kids by being a smart *** to them or punishing them for the littlest things. I am seeing a counselor, and taking bi-polar meds, but I havent changed and i still dont love my son or feel like i want him. I cant tell the counselor anything bc i am afraid she would tell social services. I need advice, does anyone else in the world treat their kids like garbage, even though all you ever wanted was to be a parent? I am sooo lost....please help me!!
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Welcome to the forums. It sounds like you're hurting. I'm sorry
I see this is your first posting.
The confessions thread used to be about confessing things we were not proud of. You might want to read through the beginning of that thread if you're feeling alone
I can't speak to your problem since there are no details.. Did you adopt with a partner? or as a single parent? Do you work outside the home? If not, do you have regularly scheduled "grownup" time? How old are you? Are you in an open adoption? semi closed? closed? Do you have family friends who serve as your support system?
Do your actions/feelings track with your bipolar swings? As in, are the more common when you're depressed? or manic?
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