Frazzled by frustration..

i know your out there, i even know your name, im so excited yet depressed because i cannot reach out to you. I am baffled that even just the slightest wrong address can keep us worlds apart - Wondering do you want to know me? wondering if you even care anymore or am i a memory that you care to forget. Possiblities are endless. Yet nothing reassures me that i am going in the right direction. Everytime i get closer it seems i learn something else, everytime i get my hopes up, i fall back a step. Cant you feel that i am searching for you? cant you feel that once connection we did have? maybe its selfish of me to expect after all these years you would still want or care to know how i am? but deep down, if you are anything like me or even have the same blood running through your veins, i know deep down you do, in which this keeps me going through the process of trying to connect. Your alwayzonmymind one way or another, i thank you for everyday that i am alive, and wish you well. Please feel my spirit around you and that i am trying to connect with you . alwayz me