Almost done...(rambling)

Sigh...so, today is our STBAS goodbye visit with bdad...it is a week later than the visit with bmom, because of some legal mumbo jumbo that delayed then officially filing the relinquishment paperwork until yesterday...anyway, Monday he had a visit with bdad...had not seen him in probably 6 months. It was AWFUL...the visit super showed up and just took the carseat from me and started putting him in her car(I usually transition him by belting him in myself and being reassuring that mommy is ok with this) he started screaming, and from what I understand, he did not stop until he got home...but, then she was so desperate, that as i ran out of the house, she was unbuckling him from his carseat saying "ok, here's mommy,. here's mommy, here's mommy!" as soon as she handed him to me, he stopped...just.like.that. What had really bothered me was I said "if you let me buckle him in he may not cry as much!!" and her reply was "oh, he is going to cry anyway!" and she just took him. I get that they see this all of the time...and just want to get it over with...but, I am not cool with that. So, today, I will drive him down to the goodbye visit myself and see if I can't make the transition easier...and even if he cries for the whole visit...at least it will be for an hour instead of an hour and a half. If I can spare him 30 minutes of fear, I am going to. Thank God the cw was supportive of that and just let the super know I would be bringing him and picking him back up. And, then...we will finally be done. I am actually kind of hoping this bdad(very young) will end the visit early if baby is crying...I *was* hoping he would just call Monday his goodbye and let it go, rather than put baby through that again...but, I guess he isn't quite that grown up yet. That's ok...we are almost done. What a weird feeling! Sigh...Thanks for listening...I guess I just needed to blather a bit...*oops...meant to post this in Foster Parent Support!