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  • September 19, 2006
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And that's the way it will always be.
When I was first married to my ex husband I so badly wanted a baby. Growing up I never saw myself living past 18, nor did my family. Once I saw a life past 18 I decided I would have babies, maybe one or three.
So, in Texas with my ex and as a military wife, having a baby was the right thing to do.
But we couldn't, or rather I was told, I couldn't.
We treid and treid and went for fertility treatment including two surgeries. Many of you understand all that, it's painful both physically and emotionally.
But no matter what we did, no baby. Not even a pregnancy.
Fast forward.
By the time I met my forever husband I was ok with the fact that I would never be able to bear children. As was he. WE'd later get married with this knowledge, but his parents don't know. Mine do, that another story!
Well, we left to get married, in Ohio, and I was dizzy and we all figured it was nerves.
When we got home my period started, I'll be it several months late. But of coarse I was let because of nerves.
My period wouldn't stop.
WEnt to the obgyn.
I was losing a baby? How could that be?
I won't go into all the emotion there. Not today
However, after a ton of considoration my husband and I decided we would shose not to have a family, outside of our pets.
Is that so wrong? I would hate to regret having children, I know people who do.
So, that is why I do things like beg for votes for my dogs.
To you they are dogs, to me they are the children I chose not to have.