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Eren Kahraman September 29, 2020 1:10 pm

Hi my name is Eren hero 16 years old I am studying justice and law and I love photography i love staying in orphanage in Turkey my father died my mother left me orphanages in my country and education ...

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I'm so sorry Eren. That breaks my heart to hear. My name is Amanda and I'm 32. I live in the US. I just joined this site to see what other people had to say. I had a baby 6 months ago that I gave up for adoption because I wanted her to have a life I couldn't give her. I'm exactly double your age, 32. I LOVE LOVE LOVE photography! I am an artist. I like to do anything and everything! I take pictures, I make the frames, I paint alot now but I used to just draw all the time. Portraits of people and animals were my favorite but now I am doing a little of everything. I actually have started my own art business called bear town art. We are creating the website now and I have to write out a business proposal of exactly what I'm doing, why I want to do this, and why should they help me? Because I'm going to corporate art suppliers for sponsorships and donations monthly. 10% of everything bought goes into a scholarship fund for special needs

and abused children to get one on one lessons for free. It's quite the undertaking honestly but I thought of how much my son enjoys painting and just doing projects where I teach him. And then God just gave me the vision for this whole business. I wish I could adopt you! I'm so sorry for your loss honey. I've been through some horrible things, most recently giving up my little baby girl. That ripped my heart out. But seeing her new daddy cry when he finally got to touch her and see her was so beautiful. I did the right thing and she has the very best chance of growing up safe, secure, loved sooooo much by two parents living in the home ߏ with her and they have good jobs and are very well off. It was the hardest thing I have ever voluntarily done in my life. Gut wrenching. Traumatic. Just uncontrollably crying into my pillow. But I've been through worse heartbreak than that. It was not voluntary either. So I know, I PROMISE I KNOW, how alone you feel in a crowded room. Alone and empty like what's the point of existing? The world has gone mad and yet it's as if we cannot move on from this feeling of grief. For me at least. I can remember when I was 16 I lived in California with my father and he was never home. I felt alone because I had just moved across the country with my dad for a fresh start away from crazy town North Carolina. My mother is still not my friend to this day. She and I are so different. I'm the woman version of my father and she hates him so it goes on down into our relationship. So first chance I got to get away from her I did. Only to go from being angry arguing with her and spending alot of time at my best friend, to waiting for school to start and then everyone just loved my NC southern accent which I quickly got rid of so I'd be like a real Californian! Lol pߘ omg it worked so well when I moved back to NC a couple years later my best friend said if I didn't stop talking like a valley girl she's hit me! .........I'm sorry it's almost 3am here and I can't sleep. I just joined this site. I miss my baby. But she's not my baby anymore. It's still so crazy that this last year even happened. The father begged me to abort it. He would of aborted it himself if he could of. Piece of crap. He didn't believe I really would do it ...like he thought I wouldn't be strong enough to actually go through with the adoption and would back out and then he worried about child support. Look best advice I will give you since I can't do anything for you like financially or adopt u myself......Don't have sex with someone that you don't love. It's not worth the risk at all of pregnancy or stds. U might think that love isnt real but it is. And once you fall in love having sex becomes exactly what God intended it to be... something sacrid and holy and enjoying your partner. Ive never been married but my son Liam....his father and I should have been married, we were together 8 years and were very inlove. When you are with your soul mate you regret all the other people you let her have a little tiny piece of yourself. I'd love to see your photos sometime if you want an American friend to be like a big sister to you. We can compare bc I have alot too. I made an adoption video too. I'll give it to her when she is older and needs to understand I did it because I loved her so much not because she was not loved. Idk I ended up stumblingly upon your comment and felt like you needed someone out here to let you know that I understand loss, pain, loneliness, anger, so much anger sometimes and to tell you I love you Eren. We all need love and compassion. I feel your pain from across the world. You are not alone anymore okay? My youtube is The Amanda Show 2.0 or email is amandalove9086@gmail.com if u want feedback on your photography. I'll share mine as well. I hope this made you feel better dear. I'm going to bed. Hopefully u will get up with me on email. Have a good day!

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