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I was just thinking the other day about how we all say that we have a hole in our hearts or a piece of our hearts missing, is how I refer to it sometimes - mainly on bad days, when talking about how we miss our children that we've placed for adoption.
I was just wondering cause I had a different, new thought the other day come to me and wondered if anyone else thought this way or felt this way.
Since I've started to finally feel like I'm having some true healing take place in my heart lately, my point of view on some things in this grief process with adoption etc. have changed.
Just yesterday, I thought of not feeling like I have a hole or a piece of my heart missing so much as I use to, but more like I'm beginning to feel like I have more family.
I've let/allowed more people (both sets of aparents and my 4 mo old's asister) into my heart. I'm allowing myself to love them now more than I did in the past, I guess is one way of putting it.
Anyway, I just was thinking instead of having a hole, I've had more love added to my heart to fill that hole and help me to heal, if that makes any sense to anyone else.
I still feel like a piece of me is missing with not having my two daughters with me and raising them, but it doesn't feel quite as painful as it use to all the time now that I've begun to do some healing in my heart.
Anyway, just a thought I had that I thought I'd share with you guys.
Anne :)
Anne,
Good analogy. I have found so much comfort and friendship here in the forums that the "hole" seems to have filled in some. The "pieces" are still missing but not as achey as they used to be.
Whenever I find myself feeling down I come here to read and post among the wonderful people here. I wish you joy and peace and happy foruming!
God bless,
Robin;)
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That was beautiful Anne.
I am not there, although you have set ideas in motion, so thank you.
I received pictures of my son yesterday, and it took things back to raw. Not like a hole in my heart but more like my flesh has been ripped away and someone is using my veins as harp strings.
It's just a moment.
This time will pass.
That is very beautiful!! Thank you for sharing that. All though many days I feel like my hole is still there it seemingly has love with it. I know that I have added addtions to the family now but it still doesnt take the pain away. Slowly but surely it will go and it is going. So thank you for sharing that it brightens my day
jess
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