Just Need to Tell My Story...

Hello there all, I'm working through the last bit of my pregnancy and I just need to share my story with someone(s). I'm 22 and I'll be 23 in a little over 2 weeks. I'm currently 3 days past my due date, but that's not horribly unusual for first pregnancies I've heard. What is unusual about me (possibly) is that I didn't know (for sure)/admit that I was pregnant until 3 weeks ago. What a whirlwind it's been. I have seen a doctor, and they've run tests at lightning speed. As far as everyone can tell right now... our daughter is healthy. (Gender courtesy of ultrasound footage.) My current employment has lovely health insurance and the delivery will be completely covered. My boyfriend, Jeff, is also 22, and we've been living together for about 9 months. We've been dating for a little over 1 year. He's very supportive, and I doubt I'd still be anywhere close to sane without him right now. We are planning on getting married, no official dates set yet though, we figure we'll take one major life change at a time. When we intially found out that I was pregnant, we met with a rep from an adoption agency. We really didn't think we were ready to raise a child financially or emotionally. We looked over some profiles and were having a hard time find a couple we really felt would be the best for our baby. Jeff has a half-sister in her 30s who is married with a 4 year-old daughter. She and her husband had/have been trying to have another child, but were/are experiencing some challenges. Their daughter took 3 years of fertility drugs to concieve. After discussing it between ourselves, Jeff and I contacted them about the possiblity of having them adopt our daughter. We feel very strongly that they are a wonderful family and would raise her well. Obviously this is a complex decision, on both sides. At this point, they are extremely interested in the possibility but have decided not to make any final decisions until she is born. We are ok with that. We've all looked into the legal aspects of this arrangement so we're going to handle it properly. But it's not for sure, so Jeff and I realized a need for an alternative. We're strongly leaning towards raising her ourselves and muddling through all the financial tangles. His family is supportive no matter what our decision is, and we've tried to make it clear that we don't want anyone pressured one way or the other. His stepmom and dad encouraging us to consider parenting, and have offer to help as best they can. My family is another story. To begin with, we have not told them so far. The reasoning behind that is the fact that I have a rocky relationship with my parents at best, an explosive, possibly abusive one at worst. They have a great tendency to overreact and usually succeed in making my stress level rocket up. They are also currently deeply involved with working through several pyschological issues that my younger sister has developed over the past few years. They do not know I'm living with Jeff. They currently pay my cellphone bill because it's part of a family plan, but have not supported me financially other than that for at least the past 9 months. They know Jeff and seem to like him. If we do decide to parent this baby girl, we do intend to tell my parents and family. However we think it would be an unwelcome stress before then I feel a bit isolated sometimes. Most of my friends don't have quite the perspective to deal with the situation. Jeff is wonderful, but honestly I know there is only so much he can cope with. His family is also wonderful, but I'm still getting to know them. I just wish I had an easier way to find advice and support for me. Oh and lets add that on top of all this I'm still working. Night shift actually, of the clerical variety. Jeff also works nights so our clocks are at least in sync. Thanks for listening all.