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This may be silly but I had an aweful dream about my bson the other night. If you have read my other posts you already know I am about 9 months into reunion and he is expecting his first child in Jan. I dreamed that I saw him with another girl and asked him what he was doing with her. He said he and his girlfriend were not getting along and they broke up. He then went on to tell me that they were giving their baby up for adoption since they weren't going to stay together. I urged him to reconsider telling him that as a bparent adoption is a life sentence of guilt and heartache. We argued over this point for a while and he started yelling at me. He said " I wish I never found you, I thought you were going to be cool, and supportive, I thought you were supposed to love me? I hate you" And... I woke up. I told him about the dream, and he laughed saying that nothing could be further from the truth. But I just can't stop thinking about it. Any other bmoms have silly dreams about bchildren?
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Oh yeah. I have a recurring dream about my daughter. It usually starts out that I'm giving birth to her again...only I know everything that's already happened and I know I'm getting to do it over again and that this time I'm going to keep her so I feel really happy at that point. Weird huh? Then I'll have her but she's never a newborn...she's always about 1yo which makes sense because those are the last pictures I have of her. Well, the dream always comes to a close with me having lost her some sort of way...like I'm looking looking everywhere but she's mysteriously gone. I keep asking everyone but nobody knows and everybody's acting like they didn't even know I have a daughter. I wake up feeling so scared and frantic. I've had this dream so often, that it has come to the point of being lucid. That means there are times when I realize in the dream that I'm dreaming.
kakuehl
It was like I'd mislaid the baby. I knew I had another child just not where I'd left him.