11 years, 3 months, 20 days...

After all this time...... I placed my daughter and son for adoption in 98 (she was 8, he was 6). While it was supposed to be a "semi-open" adoption, the agency who handled it had problems, and for years, I heard nothing. Then yesterday evening, my phone rang. I think I almost had a heart attack!! After all this time, I hear this lovely voice ask for me (using my old last name), and I was so confused. Honestly, I think she told me who she was about 3 times before it sank in!! My daughter, now 20 and married, was calling to find me for her and her brother. He's almost 18, and wants me to come to his graduation!! So we begin the "rollercoaster"!! Because of us living in different states, we are setting things up to meet during the first week of April, 2010. I'm excited, terrified, happy, shocked...honestly, I keep waiting for my head to explode, or for someone to tell me I was just dreaming!! For those who've been there, what was it truly like...seeing that face for the first time, not knowing what they are thinking, and wondering how they felt? I have health problems now, and stress tends to make my symptoms flair severely, and I SOOOO want this to be magical for us all. Is there any way to make it easier? Folks, any help here would be greatly appreciated. I really don't want to turn into a mass of jelly (my problems affect my muscle performance) and embarrass or frighten them. Or anyone else, for that matter...I can picture me collapsing in a restaurant or something (UGH). How did you prepare for the first meeting? Thank you in advance, Karen