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I just joined this today...So i'm new here.
In 6 days my little girl will 2 months old. I gave her up for adoption. After 4 days in the hospital with me, she went home with her adoptive parent. I get photos all the time and i can see her whenever they come down to visit. I'm just finding it very hard to move on without her. I wanted to keep her, i still do. I wanted her more than anything in the world, and so did the birthfather.
I feel like i was pressured by my family to give her up. I know giving her up was the best thing that i could do for her because i was not ready money wise to take care of her. I love the adoptive parents, they are truely amazing. But i just want my little girl back. Why does it have to be so painful? Does it get any easier? Everyday is a challenge. Everyday it feels like it's getting harder and harder.
The only upside to this, besides her being able to have everything that i could not providee right now, is that the adoptive parent is my sister's,husband's sister..so my sister-in-law.
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I am so sorry that you're struggling right now. It sounds like you're dealing with a lot of grief...and that's totally normal after you've placed a baby for adoption. You ask if it gets any easier...in my experience, it does get easier, at least bearable...but the pain doesn't ever totally go away, at least it didn't for me.
Don't try to bury your grief or deny it...that will just make it all the harder. Allow yourself to feel it, and then maybe write about in a journal. When I'm feeling bad, journaling usually helps me a lot to deal with the emotions and memories.
Are you in any type of counseling now? If not, you might want to consider seeking some therapy. It helps so much to have someone to talk to, someone who can help guide you in your journey.
Also, I hope you keep posting here. The birth/first moms here are a great source of support for each other...and we've all been where you are now. We understand. We may not have all the answers, but I promise you that we're good listeners. :loveyou:
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