do you want to meet me

I have a son, born Janurary 27 1971 in Miami, Florida. It was a private adoption, finalized in New Jersey, in May of 1971. I did not want to give him up, I had actually wanted him before he was concieved. But I was talked into it by family. I don't blame them because it was my decision in the end. His father on the other hand did not want anything to do with either of us. His father is Greek and we met in high school and dated for a few years. This was in Reseda California. I have never gone a year without thinking of him on his birthday. I had started several times to try to find him, then backed out because I am afraid that he won't want to see me. I don't know if he has ever looked for me or thought of me over the last 39 years. I pray that God will grant me mercy and forgiveness. If He will allow me to see my first born, the only child I had. Later, I did adopt a son in 1981-wonderful blessing to me-he however passed from me 12 years ago.I am willing to accept...