new here and my experience.

Hi everyone. I am new to the site, and I wanted to share some. I was given up for adoption while my birth mother was still pregnant. She was able to choose my parents ( adoptive) through the lawyer and chose them because my dad was in a wheelchair paralyzed and would never be able to have children, at least that was the main reason. I always knew i was adopted, I was told i had 2 families that loved me very much. When i was 18, and pregnant with my first child ( back in 1988), i decided it was time to find my birth family. I had the adoption papers from my mom and dad, and i was able to get their signatures to open the sealed files in california to get more information. I found an agency to help me, and with in 2 weeks found out that my birth mother had killed herself in 79, 10 years after my birth. I did get to meet her parents, and sister, and my half brother. No one knew who my birth father was and it was not on my original birth cert. So that was a nice dead end. :| My birth family and i have always kept in some contact, at least christmas cards and such. In 1998, I lost contact with my brother, and have been searching for him ever since. I did find out that his father, my birth mothers husband, passed away in 2005. My birth grandparents passed away a few years ago also, and Now, i only have my birth aunt living. One other note, when i called my birth grandparents the first time, my grandfather answered, after explaining who i was, he asked if i wanted to talk to my grandmother. I said " if she wants to, yes" His reply... "We have been waiting 18 years for this call, of course she does" It was a blessed reunion. My birth grandmother was the only family member who held me when i was born before i went to my mom and dad. Well, i will be posting in search angel forums for help to find my brother, not sure if they can help, but i will try. thanks for listening, Carrie