Up to Me

Maybe no one is supposed to completely understand when i get lost in my thoughts about someone i had a connection with but never knew Perhaps it is all up to Me. Maybe nobody else can truly fell my sadness mixed with excitement, disappointment paired with elation... unless they have experienced the same loss Perhaps it is all up to Me. Maybe by crying all these tears Alone, choosing what moments to live in and which ones to let go of on my own, This is how i will find my way... Truly leaving it all up to Me.