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You're not all that far from where I live -- a tiny hamlet north up Highway 49. I, too, live in the Mother Lode (Gold Rush Country) about a little over an hour from Placerville. I know what you mean about therapists in our neck of the woods not having any experience with adoption-related issues. There are a couple of triad support groups, but therapists are far and few between.What I would suggest is to go to Nancy Verrier's website and ask for her help and assistance. Verrier is a licensed therapist and specializes in adoption-related issues, some of which may be contributing to your deep depression. Her office is located in the Bay Area, but she does do telephone therapy and referrals. You can email her from her website and see what she recommends. (She's also the author of The Primal Wound and Coming Home to Self.)What I'm very concerned about right now is you going off all your meds. Did you cold-turkey them, or did you wean yourself off the antidepressants? It really should be done under the supervision and advice of a psychiatrist or family preactitioner who treats depression.I hope you come back here for some support. There are some amazing adoptees on this forum, but they probably haven't had a chance to see your thread yet. I'm sure as soon as they do read it, they'll offer you some moral support and advice.Hang in there! Depression doesn't have to be a lifelong sentence! :loveyou:

It's good to talk and post, medications can be tiresome as they can make you foggy but going off them cold turkey can send you into a spin. I think you should try it slowly while you wrap your head around your feelings. I think maybe cognitive therapy maybe good for you, but ravens comment seems very helpful. Hang in there, you are not alone.

Thank You So Much For Your Letter.....your A Adoptee So You Know Its Very Hard To Ask For Help....at Least It Is For Me. That Was Such A Nice Letter And I Feel God Is Looking After Me. I Willl Try The Site U Suggested. Keep In Touch Please. Let Me Know More Of Your Story K. Im So New To All These Feelings....well Not The Feelings...but New To What Is Causing Alot Of Them...and New To Facing The Truth About What Is Real In Life.....like Hey--i Was Adopted And It Hurt......thats A New And Scary One For Me.....i Also Feel Alot Of Fear All The Time And Putting A Name To That Fear Should Maybe Help Me Deal With It.....rite? Hey Well Thatnks So Much....keep In Touch God Bless :wings:

Hi there Sherree,My name is Polly and I'm new to this site!First of all it's great to see something for adoptees. People often forget the older adoptees, or even young adults that are an adoptee. So it's nice to see the thread.Sorry to hear that you are suffering with low mood/depression at the moment; I hope that it dissipates soon. It's not pleasant I know. I know that CBT helped me ALOT! it helps you deal with emotions and feelings in a much more helpful and constructive way, so that you can transform something which had always seemed negative into something that you can actually work with, if that makes sense.By the way I wanted to share something with you. I have a website that is just for adoptees. It does cover adoption but is mainly geared toward adoptees like you and me, really. I have also written a book called The Adopted One [url=http://tiny.cc/tai4ew]The Adopted One | I Was Adopted Blog[/url] which is based on a true story. It might help you through things...who knows, stranger things have happened.Having been adopted myself I can only hope that more people connect and share their experiences here and elsewhere;we need to voice our thoughts, memories and befriend each other as adoptees.I hope that you get some advice on CBT, for me that would be the next logical step. And, hope to hear from you soon :)Best wishes,Polly