God's plan in God's time

My story is long but I will try to make it short. I found out I was adopted when I was 7. Around this time I was also molested by a family member. Needless to say this led to many years of not really knowing who I was, where I belonged, And even though I was very loved still feeling rejected. I had a hard time accepting that I was right where I needed to be. I took a very wrong turn in my teens and it spilled over into my adult life. I was adopted by a family that was first baby sitting me so they knew my birth mother. I knew a lot about her and spent many years thinking I was destined to be like her. I myself turned 4 children over to sorted family members because I could not get my life together. 6 years ago, I hit my knees and prayed for death. God gave me life. I have been clean ever since. I am married now with 2 boys ages 4 and 5. Last year I found out my daughter my oldest daughter was struggling with depression. Again the question of nature verses nurture consumed me. I began to think I was part of this Legacy and that I past it down to my children. I found my birth mom and sister a couple weeks ago. and was on a plane the following week. Upon meeting my sister come to find that our stories were so similar. Before and after adoption. difference was that she didn't find out til she was 18. But she was adopted by a cousin. And was contacted by our bio mom immediately. Now I must say... meeting my birth mom was nothing like I thought it would be. She is a mess. Alcoholic. Living in a trailer that should be condemed. With a man that not only abuses her, but is sex offender as well. All these years she has beat herself up for what she went through in her own childhood as well as what was done to my sister and I. She has been offered help time and time again... And has many excuses. I am not sorry I met her. I am relieved. 1. My search is over. 2. all question answered. 3. I AM NOT DESTINED TO BE HER. And 4. I have the most wonderful sister. God would not allow this reunion to happen until I was ready to deal with this. I use my life as a testimony. And this is yet another chapter in my testimony. I am very blessed.