Hardest Part

I think the hardest part about adoption so far has been how lonely I feel sometimes. I do know other birth mothers, but everyones situation is so different and we all cope so differently. It's so hard to talk about what I'm going through sometimes because I feel judged. How can I explain how sad it makes me when my little birth daughter runs to her mommy for comfort instead of me? I know that's just her showing a healthy attachment to her parents, which is just what I wanted. But no one really understands how painful it is to have just what I wanted for her. People get uncomfortable and don't want to talk about any of the negatives, so sometimes I feel forced to put a smile on my face and act like I'm in no pain. That's really tough for me.

Mine were older child adoptions and the hardest part is them having behaviors and other people thinking they should be treated like non-adoptees.