adoptee struggles

It sounds like you are reacting out of a lot of pain. I get it. Not knowing your birth family and believing that they didn’t want you hurts. At least it does for me. I don’t think people don’t care about your adoption, but it either makes them uncomfortable or they don’t understand what it is like to be adopted. It also sounds like you are pushing people away. Trying to prove to yourself that you are unlovable by being unlovable. That will only perpetuate more pain and isolation. I would know. I have done that in many of my relationships.It is true that your birth family was taken away from you, and that sucks. But moping and being angry at the world will not solve anything. Work toward healing by really grieving the pain so that you can move forward for your own sake.I really hope you can release the pain so that you can have a beautiful life. That is my wish for you and for me.