Getting on with life

I've just had an operation on my thyroid (half removed with nodule) and I'm at home steadily trying to rest (its so boring being at home with next to nothing to do, I can't drive because of the anaesthetic, and I can't talk, as my voice has come to a halt because of too much already so soon after the op which was Monday!). So! here I am, back on the boards. Its over a month since I contacted my son and I've left it. Something inside has died and I'm not feeling any different. I've put his photos and communications away and got one annoyed phone message to say he hadn't heard from me. Yeh, snapping your fingers again and expect me to jump eh? I haven't heard a word since either by email or by phone or by snail mail. I did tell him that I was going for an operation last month and he's probably forgotten, as life is supposed to revolve around him, and you know, anyone reading this, this is probably a little late to make this remark as I feel I've moved on, but it feels good to move on. It feels good to say, you know what Janny, you don't deserve the **** that this man has given you for 2 years now. I don't feel as if I have a son, just some bloke that found me 2 years ago and just made life ****. I've lost the motivation, the endurance and sheer emotional slog has brought its own result, I've my own life and I'm getting on with it. Yeh, I've still the same guy in my life and he has been supportive and a great friend to me. Its been a complete turn around for me to go in a direction that I WANT TO GO instead of acquiesing all my life to what others expect of me or what I think they expect of me. At one point, I thought I would never leave my son, NEVER! ha, how human behaviour changes that. If I were to summarise why the reunion has collapsed, I would say that my son had unrealistic expectations and precious little effort put into showing more sensitivity into it. there is only so much a person can take and he exceeded it and I've just gone into complete shutdown. Not interested. Finito. Sad. Those in reunion have to realise that if they behave in a certain fashion, responsibility for the results rests on their head, the ultimate reunion is crafted by efforts on both sides.