I didn't know what it could be...

Originally Posted By Emily, Birthmom of Kaylan Marie 7/10/99Hello, I am the proud birthmom of almost 17 month old Kaylan Marie, whom I named. I gave birth at 15 and hid my pregnancy for a long time. When I chose adoption (in my 8th month), I didn't know exactly how open it could be. I wanted nothing more than too keep my little girl, and raise her myself, but after comming back to reality, i realized that that was almost impossible. The struggle would have been too much, and I decided to put my selfishness aside and do what was best for my DAUGHTER. I found a couple in a way which is nothing short of fate to me, and was told that we's have an open adoption, which I chose. I began getting pictures, and letters all the time. No set dates of the month etc. Just periodically. We never went through the agency after the adoption was final, and we had eachother's personal phone numbers and addresses(sometimes the aparents want to go through the agency with any letters etc.). We had the whole ceremony outside the hospital and everything. They even kept her name for us. I was under the impression that this was an "open adoption." I began to reasearch it a little further, and saw that in some cases, in fact, in most cases of open adoption their are visits as well as the letter, pictures, and phone calls. I did not know visits were available. I wanted to be as much apart of my daughter's life as I can be, and I still do. I thought that i was as close as I could be. I did email the amom, and ask her for a visit, and with open arms, within the nest 2 weeks, we met...Everything went awesome, and we all decided that wouldn't be the last visit by a long shot. However, visits were never discussed befor Kaylan was born, but only because I didn't know they were possible. How can I approach the subject with the aparents for more frequent visits? I just feel strange, do I as kaylan's birthmother have rights to see her? Or is it totally up to them. Do you think they'll be okay with it? I am scared to ask. They';re great people, if anyone would like to read my "story": please feel free to email me personally. If possible, may anyone who'd like to reply to me please email me directly? I often foget to check the board. This is VERY important to me...please HELP!!!!!Email- Kaylanmarie71099@aol.com