looking for heidi ann mcdowell 11-24-82

Hi, My name's Kali. I am the same Heidi Ann McDowell as you gave birth to. I'm sorry if my wording is strange, but this is all very surreal for me... I was filling out some information for an email tag game, 'random things about you', when I thought twice about writing down my birth name. I then wondered what would happen if I searched my name, and this site with your message was the first thing that came up. I admit, I wasn't sure if I should respond to your message, and I'm still not sure if I'm doing the right thing... Anyways, I'm pretty sure I'm the one you're looking for. I was left a package that I opened on my 16th birthday that told me about my biological mother, Mitzi, and two brief letters from you and your mother (my grandmother) about why I was adopted. Of course, I already knew that I was adopted and even knew my birth name. When I read your letter, it changed a lot for me and being 16, I wanted my hand writing to be like yours, neat and bubbly, and was even afraid that I would end up getting pregnant like you, thinking it was genetic (even though I hadn't even had sex yet)... I thank you for the pictures, they're all I have of my past, which many times feels like doesn't even exist. I'm sorry if I've said to much... I just don't really know what to say and afraid to be rude in any way... but, in your message, you said you needed me, and not having gone through what you did, I'm afraid I don't understand this need, unless it's a need to know that everything turned out okay. If this is the case, please know that it has. Granted, life for me has been more difficult than many, but I was blessed with a wonderfull mother (my adopted mother) and brother. And now, I'm following my dreams. Overall, I'm happy and can't complain, for I have God's love, the love of my family, the love of my fiance', and the love of friends... Well, I guess I shouldn't tell everything about me in one message... you might not even read this since I see yours was sent so long ago. If you would like to respond back, please feel free to. :flower: -Heidi Ann McDowell