Omg!!! 15!!

My DD will be 15 this weekend. I haven't seen her since she was a day old. I can't believe it's been that long!!! Already, I'm anxious and restless. I can't concentrate, but if I let my mind wander, it will hijak my brain!!! I wonder what she's doing, how she will choose to celebrate. I just want to hide and bed and pull up the covers and not comeout until Monday!!! But this is the first year I know for certain that she is a happy and healthy and beautiful young lady. I am grateful for that. She will have so many friends and loved ones surrounding her on her special day. I hope one day I can be there too. I'd love to see her blow her candles out one day!!! I hope she will think of me on her birthday, and know that I am forever thinking of her :love: For now, I decided to start a journal for her, so that I can talk to her and share with her my feelings, and hopefully answer the questions she may have if we ever meet someday. It's the only birthday present I can give to her right now! I'll send a message to her a mom, letting her know how much I think of them and how I wish her the best. And then I will go out and drop some serious dough on some shoes :) I know she's too young to read this here (though you never know, LOL!!!) but I just wanted to say Happy Birthday to my Twinkie:cake: I hope all your wishes come true!!!! And thanks to all my forum friends, who have been so awesomely checking in on me this past week!!! Love you guys!!!