Long Time No Post But Big Update...

Okay so some of you know me and some don't, but it's been quite a while since I've been around much. I had and placed two girls with two diff families as most of you know and the oldest of the two - my first, who is 10 yrs old now is asking to meet me and getting curious about me now. I just had a conversation with my 10 yr old's mom asking me how I felt about meeting with my 10 yr old sometime in the near future so she's going to talk to A- my 10 yr old and the aDad and then we're going to see what happens but so depending on a few things I may be meeting my 10 yr old and maybe starting to have visits with her in the near future here. I've been expecting this as we've been opening up our adoption relationship etc more but the reality of this and that it might be happening pretty soon is freaking me out ...just a little and my 10 yr old wants to meet my 18 mo old - her sister etc too so this is going to be interesting to see what happens in the next little while or so. I just had to freak out and share with you guys who will get it some more than others - EEEK :arrow:!